I had put away my artsy things for almost 3 months due to being depressed about my surgery, uncertain employment and general “how are we going to make it” anxiety. I had almost no connections with friends either near or far and my one creative outlet and friend had a life and new directions that did not correspond with mine.
All of the things that I have accumulated and purchased lay her collecting dust. I had no desire to try and do anything as I had distanced myself from everyone, including my blog. I fell into a pattern of watching mind numbing shows like ?aris Hilt0n’s My BFF and Platinum Weddings…I could not imagine having so much money to toss around, let alone time to jet set to imagined places with a couple hundred friends. The reality was that I was losing my reality to mindless tv and red wine. I could not wait for the kids to go to bed or to their rooms so I could “unwind” from the stress of being religated to domestic servant and chauffeur.
I received my issue of CPS July/ August and after scanning the contents, put it in my night table drawer for a later date. Woke up too late to see Anderson Cooper 360 and found the magaxine again. The article by Loretta Benedetto Marvel knocked my socks off! She spoke about the need to create art during these difficult and uncertain times because it is necessary and not a luxury! (here I was trying to figure out if the kids would miss cable tv or martial arts lessons least; how many times could the family love lasagne and not figure out it was STILL mommy’s disguised pasta 😉 ? Loretta sopke about the difficulties of supporting oneself with art and while trying to reinvent one’s self to survive economically. What hit me most was the her passion to inspire artists, especially those of us newly discovering our artistic side. ” As long as you draw breath, you have at hand all you need to create. And as long as you draw breath, no one and nothing can take away from you that essential beat of the heart that declares, ” I am an artist”
I am SOOOO fired up and inspired…Jeanette, lets make a date!